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Overcoming sugar addiction: Uncovering pain

4/5/2017

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I could have called this post so many things:
  • Desperate times call for desperate measures.
  • Now I understand what crack addicts feel like in rehab.
  • Mourning the loss of German Black Forest Cake.
  • My husband and I can no longer eat the foods we love together, and that sucks.
  • Please, gawd, make this torture stop. 
Sugar addiction
This used to be lunch.
But the truth of the matter is, I am hopeful that the process I am going through right this minute (and have gone through about 43,200 minutes already) will cease to feel desperate, not remind me of crack addiction, no longer have me mourning, allow me once again to eat meals with my husband, and have me not feeling as though I am being tortured most hours of most days of the week.

I’m hopeful that I will, indeed, overcome the sugar addiction that I have been unconsciously feeding for over a decade now. It went into overdrive when I met and married another sugar addict (isn’t that how it always goes?) and discovered I needed to drop sugar to heal a damaged gut (more on that later).

The funny part to me is that I never realized I was actually dependent on sugar.

Is this true for other addicts? I mean, do smokers not realize they need nicotine? Do drinkers not realize they need alcohol? Is that how it works? Denial writ large, every time?
 
All addictions—whether as destructive as crack or as seemingly benign as exercise—serve one purpose: to cover up any emotions we perceive as negative (anger, rage, guilt, fear, sadness) and prevent us from feeling and/or expressing them and their attendant shame.
 
And being 4 weeks into my withdrawal from sugar, I can say, holy shit, did I have far more negative-perceived emotions than I ever thought possible. And this, from someone who has practiced and tried just about every possible healing modality and self-help process on the planet to heal my longstanding wounds!
 
The crazy thing is, I went easily and happily without sugar for many years. But during those years, I was exercise addicted. I’d get physically and emotionally agitated if I could not exercise, and it had nothing to do with blood sugar (good excuse!) and everything to do with the fact that the exercise—as all addictions do—prevented me from feeling the emotions I did not think I was allowed to express.

Sugar, exercise, crack—all the same in the eyes of the emotions. All willing to give us poor, mortal people an easy way out as we struggle to (unsuccessfully) cope with all the trauma and drama of being born, being brought up by imperfect people, and becoming adults in an emotion-retarded, addiction-overloaded world.
 
I’m not sure what the point of this post is (maybe it will reveal itself). All I know is that I felt it was important to share a few insights and then ask some questions of my fellow addicts in recovery.
 
First, the insights:
  • Sugar addiction is subtle and very, very real!
  • Living without sugar is extremely hard in a country where cake is a national specialty.
  • Living without sugar is easier when one eats enough fat (especially saturated fats).
  • Eating a lot more fat and no processed sugar or grains makes my body leaner, happier, more energetic, and without inflammation or painful/crunchy joints. I had been wondering where those fun physical symptoms had come from, and now I know.
  • I still crave and imagine eating cake almost every day. Despite the above-listed benefits of not eating it. Which explains why many alcoholics in recovery go to an AA meeting every day, no matter where they are. Daily support when recovering from addiction is really a must.
  • My negative emotions are finally allowed to surface, and man, do I need EVERY one of those modalities and self-help processes I have previously learned and practiced to safely let them out. Recovering is a daily practice of self care that requires focus, sometimes extraordinary effort, time, and intention. In healing addiction, there are no shortcuts. And did I mention that patience is not really my forte?
 
Now, my questions for fellow addicts in recovery:
  • Does it ever get easier? [Updated Feb. 2018: Yes, it does!]
  • Did you have to stop and start when you first tried to quit your thing, or did you stick to it at the first go?
  • How did you find support for staying off the thing?
  • Did you ever notice, once you committed to recovering, that you had been addicted to more than one thing in your life? And how long did it take you to stop just trading one addiction to another? (Only took me about 20 years…)
  • What daily practices do you do that help you not get overwhelmed by your cravings and their real cause (our deep desire to not express the “negative” emotions we need to feel)?
 
Anyone else silently struggling with addiction, even to something as benign-sounding as sugar, I hope this post lets you know that you are not alone. I am willing to bet that the vast majority of people we encounter on a daily basis are addicted to something. Yeah, there are that many negative emotions being repressed in all of us—and that many great addictions (coffee, anyone?).
 
Addictions are so easy, and none of us needs to be ashamed that we have succumbed. Even if you’re not ready to quit whatever it is you’re addicted to, and not ready to face whatever emotions you’re avoiding feeling, at least know that you do have the option to quit hurting yourself, and you will find support. I’ll be posting my strategies for dealing with my negative emotions and resisting my addiction in the coming weeks. And maybe some of my fellow addicts in recovery will be so inclined to share theirs below?

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